A Challenge of WILL and WON'T

As much as I love to dwell in reality, sometimes I fantasize that I'm a drifter -- untamed and unbound by emotions or human ties. I like to think that I'm unpredictable and mysterious.

But with fantasy aside, the truth is I know myself too well.

I know that I will always put off doing laundry until the last minute because I have extra clothes. They may not even fit right or be the nicest looking, but I know I have them and will wear them out before I wash anymore.

I know that I will always put the emergency brake up when I park a car, much to the annoyance of anyone who drives after me.

I know that I will, at some point today, say the phrase "you learn something new every day" because I always do.

And yet, on the flipside, I also know some not-so-great things about myself.

I know I will curse while driving down the road because of something another car/driver did.

I know that I will probably not get out of bed until an hour or so before I leave for work.

I know that I will more than likely doubt myself or my abilities at least once.

You are the world's greatest authority on yourself. After all, who knows your habits or mannerisms better than you? At times it may take others pointing them out before we notice them ourselves, but for the most part you are the only one who truly understands the reasons why you do the things you do.

So today I'm going to try something new. Seeing as I know what I will do, I am going to challenge myself to do things I normally don't do.

Today I will smile more. (Apparently I grimace. A lot.)

Today I will strike up a conversation with someone I have never spoken to. (Most days I keep to myself.)

Today I will make and accept sincere compliments. (A tough one for myself.)

I will report back tomorrow on my success or failure. Until then, have a good day everyone!